i am so excited because i will be visiting this awesome lady and her family for a nice, long, fun-filled weekend. i will be sure to share when i get back!

just discovered lip dubs

awesome

it's friday (insert deep sigh of relief here)

tgif.

i need to refresh and start new. i can feel a fresh start. we've been going through some very tough times with my family, but i can feel it turning around.

i played hookey on tuesday and my mom and i went shopping at nordstroms. it was a lot of fun and a nice break. i got my first pair of skinny jeans...make that three! love them. i also got a pair of bright orange sperry topsides!

this weekend i am going to clean my room...it is in desperate need. my closet too! just some spring cleaning.

i also want to work on art this weekend.

i can feel spring...i need spring. it is finally sunny here for the past two days and i have driven home from school with the windows down. ok, maybe it is only 38 outside, but i'm in denial and thinking spring is just around the corner.

i'm excited for tonight. alex is coming over and she, my mom, and i are making homemade pizzas. yesss. i have started wanting to bake or cook every now and then.

oh, and one more thing. is it weird that i like cleaning? loud music and the vac just fit perfectly into my friday nights. love it.

tgif. enjoy it!

hope you all had a wonderful valentine's day! here are some cards that i made.

inspiration stuff

hello hello. it's been a tough week or so. i'm staying positive, but sometimes i just can't take it. so much to do and so much i want to do. looking forward to spring and starting to search for prom dresses. i know it's early, but i want to get a unique dress before they are all gone. here are some things that i'm liking right now.

oh and one more thing, i also want to start cooking or baking more. just an odd natural occurence/burning desire deep down.

this quote:
“certain things, they should stay the way they are. you ought to be able to stick them in one of those big glass cases and just leave them alone.” – j.d. salinger


this ribbon by kelly rae roberts,
these hearts,this piece of art by kris chau.

and this post at color me katie.

happy tuesday!

music love

found on hula seventy

i'm going to make some valentines.

Today I was good at keeping my head down and avoiding eye contact. My uncle passed away unexpectedly yesterday. It hit me so hard and fast. I had never lost anyone close to me before. I cried beyond blubbering and laid in the dark. I had just seen him on my visit a month ago…talked to him six days ago.

Today at school was such a weird feeling. I decided to go to keep my mind off of it. I had some mini breakdowns on the inside but I stayed strong for my parents and me.
Today I was hurting so much on the inside and all around me I saw my peers laughing and smiling with absolutely nothing wrong…not thinking about death or grieving.

Today people asked the ole "how was your weekend?" question expecting the obligatory response of "good" or "fine". The response that immediately came to my mind was "my uncle died" before I uttered an "ok" and moved on.

Today I felt broken and empty.

Today I felt my heart truly ache.

Today everything is going to change for my family, but I just have to stay positive and look for the good.

He would want that for me.