Today I was good at keeping my head down and avoiding eye contact. My uncle passed away unexpectedly yesterday. It hit me so hard and fast. I had never lost anyone close to me before. I cried beyond blubbering and laid in the dark. I had just seen him on my visit a month ago…talked to him six days ago.
Today at school was such a weird feeling. I decided to go to keep my mind off of it. I had some mini breakdowns on the inside but I stayed strong for my parents and me.
Today I was hurting so much on the inside and all around me I saw my peers laughing and smiling with absolutely nothing wrong…not thinking about death or grieving.
Today people asked the ole "how was your weekend?" question expecting the obligatory response of "good" or "fine". The response that immediately came to my mind was "my uncle died" before I uttered an "ok" and moved on.
Today I felt broken and empty.
Today I felt my heart truly ache.
Today everything is going to change for my family, but I just have to stay positive and look for the good.
He would want that for me.