Monday, August 4, 2008

His mysterious ways

So recently I have been working on my relationship with God. I have asked Him into my heart to take control of my life. I want to live my life for Him and I am slowly starting to notice His presence in my everyday life. Today I wrote in my journal about why I have been feeling so unsure lately. I found out that I worry too much about things that are not a problem in my life at the moment. I wrote on and on about my worries and I saw that most of them were trivial and stupid. It was good to get it on paper and notice that. I wrote how on Saturday night I was out with Cooper. We were sitting on a bench downtown. We were both quiet, listening to the cars pass and looking up at the stars. Then there was me on the inside...worrying...unsure about my life when I could be sitting there enjoying being there with him. Enjoying the fact that we can sit in silence, his arm around me, feeling happy. After writing all this down, I concluded that the word unsure would not be a part of my vocabulary anymore. I also decided to stop all the worrying.

Here is part of my entry:

Unsure. I hate you. Goodbye unsureness. We are SO over!

Then I put my journal away and went on checking the blogs I like and this is what I found over on shutter sisters. Today's post is about worrying. ....................................................................................... (this is me...speechless)

I am noticing God's ways. I am noticing His presence in my life. I am noticing how much He is there for me. I am noticing how much I want to live for Him.

2 comments:

sweetsalty kate said...

How beautiful and self-aware you are... wonderful post, thank you for sharing it.

jfrancis said...

God gives
direction
to those
seeking
his direction.